Living with our Sacred Wound


Our sacred wound is a very significant event in our lives, something traumatic, painful or deep… the memory of which informs your instinctual reactions and behaviours from that point onward.

I learned about my sacred wound during my apprenticeship of the Four Seasons Journey.. and since that time I have been learning how to live with it in a healed way. To acknowledge it (my instinctual reaction to a situation), send it love, and speak from an unwounded place.

I have been feeling lately how deep this is, what a life long work it is, and, at the moment, how it doesn’t get easier.

It is always there, my first feeling in conflict or emotional exchanges, the place I go in deep healing work, the place that still needs to be healed.

And yet, it is much easier to navigate a situation with this knowledge than without. Or at least know why I am feeling the way I am, again.

You know that feeling? Why does this always happen to me? Why am I ‘that’ person in this scenario again?

I will share my sacred wound so that you may see how it carries through a life.

I was an unwanted pregnancy, of teen parents, I later learned that they were considering adopting me out. I was born, and separated from my mother over night. They didn’t give me up, they kept me and nurtured me to the best of their ability, gave me all the opportunities they could. And, part of me always knew I was unwanted.

There is an amazing book by Robyn Furnance, Being Born. In this book she goes over possible birth scenarios, caesarean, forceps, early, late etc. and unwanted, and talks about the ways these births affect the person, how they may react and be in this life.

It took me a long time to read this section, even though I use this book very often in my work. It felt like reading it was accepting the painful truth of being unwanted, that I would have written evidence that I really was unwanted because I felt exactly what was there.

And I did.

An unwanted child has a constant pull of being wanted and then feeling so uncomfortable in that place, does something or behaves in a way that makes them unwanted. This can be conscious or unconscious and has played out in my life in many ways. It does not have to be the actions of myself that create the ‘set up’, and is never usually the intention of the other party to make me feel unwanted, that is just my default reaction to any kind of rejection of myself or something I have done.

I was able to articulate it recently, which put it into perspective for me, why it hurts so deeply when the situation does not seem to be that big of a deal from the outside. The stream of experiences, emotions and feelings that have been deeply ingrained and replayed my whole life are-

love, birth, perfection, completely open, trusting, rejection, unwanted, wrong.

When I feel most open and trusting in a relationship, something occurs that hits straight to the heart of my wound and creates a reaction that may be disproportionate to the actual event. Leaving me wanting to flee the scene and start all over again somewhere else.

What I have taught myself to do is to stay with it, to talk it through and come to an understanding where we feel heard and acknowledged.

The tricky part is if the other party is not up for that kind of exchange straight away. I am yet to master the art of keeping my own stuff to myself to deal with. I think because my wounding is being unwanted, I want to make sure that everything is ok and I am still wanted as quickly as possible. I am still working on this! (probably forever)!

It is really amazing to think that every single person out there in this world is operating in the same way, reacting from their wound, and very few with consciousness to what is really going on.

And, I think we all know on a cellular, bodily level anyway. I had a knowing from a very young age that I was the product of a union that was not acceptable. What I didn’t know was how that caused me to behave in my everyday reactions from this wounded place.

I have also learned through my work, that no matter what the wound, how big or small, it is still a wound. Everybody has one, we can’t protect our children from having them (unfortunately). All we can do is have love and understanding for those we interact with, that they too are wounded and coming from that place.

My sacred wound is always open, always fresh, never a scar. So that I keep tending myself (that little baby) with love and acceptance.


Each time I have held my new born babes with love and acceptance I have healed the red thread for all my relations..

Blessed Be

Talulah x


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  1. Kristan on October 26, 2013 at 12:02 pm

    Thank You Talulah
    Words of Wise Teaching thru your own deep experiencing
    Authentic Truth
    Blessed Be

  2. Jane Hardwicke Collings on October 26, 2013 at 1:12 pm

    Dearest Talulah,
    Thank you for sharing so deeply from your heart and wound, there’s so much for us all to learn from your sacred teaching.
    Blessed Be
    Love Jane xxxx

  3. raven on October 26, 2013 at 2:28 pm

    So brave of you to share your emotions on such a fragile matter. It takes great courage and I have been inspired to look deeper into my own wounding, which has a habit of rising up when I least expect so that I may pay attention and heal with consciousness. Many thanks, Raven X

  4. Sarah on October 26, 2013 at 7:32 pm

    So tender talulah! It feels like you have given me a gift of knowing, something precious to hold and to look with tenderness within myself and others. Blessings Sarah xx

  5. Avalon Darnesh on October 26, 2013 at 8:34 pm

    thankyou Talulah for sharing so openly and vulnerably…knowing we all carry these sacred wounds, your sharing is a gift to allow ourselves and accept and love ourselves just as we are, wounds and all xx

  6. shamanicspiderwoman on October 27, 2013 at 8:01 am

    Thank you Talulah for sharing your being wounded and for accepting this as part of yourself. I can so much relate to when you mention you want to run away and start again. It feels very deep and it is encouraging that you interrupt your pattern and start talking to get a ‘reality check’. I can hear your being hurt and I can hear yourself taking responsibility for yourself. Blessings and Love, Barbara

    • makingsacred on October 27, 2013 at 8:17 am

      Beautiful Barbara, Thank you, Love xxx

  7. Tribe on October 28, 2013 at 8:54 am

    Dear Talulah,

    this story is so so beautiful and brave – thank you for sharing, it did some potent healing for me as I read it. Can I share it on our website with a link to your site?

    Oceans of love and see you soon, Julia xxx

    • makingsacred on October 28, 2013 at 9:03 am

      Of course you dear Julia, thank you, Love Talulah xxx

  8. Becsta Funk on October 28, 2013 at 3:50 pm

    Sigh… hearty words… thankyou, friend… your image tied everything together, somehow… the perfection of that loving gaze/holding…

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