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big medicine

June 27, 2016

I posted a dance last week, that unexpectedly got a big response. I never know if a dance is going to be interesting or will draw people in, but this one did, was it the dance? was it the dress? was it the song? was it the words I wrote under it? I actually thought when I posted it that it would be one of the ones that didn’t really get seen. I did it really quickly, about to collect kids from school, I didn’t watch it back, I just posted it with the words.. (which happens a lot, the ones I think will be unnoticed are the most popular.. where people engage with me and talk about it.. what’s that about mmmmm )?

I think, maybe it was all of the above! Sometimes its a magic combination of all 4 elements..

The idea of getting to know your medicine, to be your medicine, that you are a medicine woman was what was reflected to me in the comments most.

What is Medicine? Another way to put it could be your gifts, your aura, what you bring to what you do, who you are, what people feel when they are with you, what magic you bring, what you carry in your medicine bundle.

A medicine woman might be a healer, a plant sister, an energy worker, a midwife. These are more traditional ideas for the term. I also believe there are as many kinds of medicine as there are people. Each person has a special, individual flavour to their magic that is there whether they know it, and use it, or not.

I didn’t really feel I had any special medicine until I dreamed into this idea. I’m not a healer, midwife, holder of a great amount of plant wisdom nor do I do any traditional forms of energy work. I had a feeling, like with most things in my life up until I was around 35, that I was a beginner, a baby in these realms, I didn’t honour anything I am or do as anything special because it wasn’t recognised with a label or title, I couldn’t even put it into words!

About five years ago now  Julia Inglis of Sacred Familiar came to teach the graduates of the School of Shamanic Womancraft, for a Deepening weekend. We did all sorts of amazing things, past life journeys, reclaiming the witch, connecting with our gypsy souls and finding our medicine. It was a huge weekend.

There is always a common thread in my past life journeys. I’m always alone. Often outcast because of what I knew, what work I did, because I was hiding, because I was in danger, because I was powerful.

So maybe, thats why now, what I am and who I am is undefinable in this life time? It keeps me safe. I can actually be anything I need to be in any situation to best survive.

When we did our Medicine process, a journey, I had such high expectations for what I would find. Certain I would be a fire witch (even though I’m almost entirely water and air) or get some title I could claim. My ego was ready for some definition of my description!

The medicine I found I have/am is love, beauty and joy.

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Image by Kristan Lee Read.. after I found my medicine..

 

I was pretty annoyed at the time that I didn’t get a title..

I have many many titles I can put to what I do~ Shamanic Craftswoman, Mother, Doula, Ceremonialist, Water Witch, Dancer, Singer, Holder of Space, Womens Mysteries Teacher.. and in all of these roles I am bringing my medicine of love, beauty and joy.

How that is expressed is always changing.

I was a bit embarrassed about beauty being in there to start, only because I thought people would think I thought by being there and looking beautiful I was adding something! I felt the need to explain that beauty is a feeling, a grace, peace, colour, sacredness and acceptance of the moment, no matter what that moment may be, a birth, a death, a dance, a ceremony, a difficult time, a transition into the next evolution.

My teacher Jane Hardwicke Collings shared with me upon hearing of my unenthusiastic meeting with my medicine…. her teacher and friend Jeannine Parvati Baker, said to Jane on her death bed, that she knew what the meaning of life was… to bring beauty.

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Image by Kristan Lee Read.. Jane telling me the story..

That cured me of any disappointment.

And the more I think of it, the more I know that this medicine I hold is because of all the lives I’ve had, including this one, all the lessons, and strategies  and gifts to protect myself from being persecuted and outcast.

For in this life time, I am not alone.

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Image by Kristan Lee Read.. women gathered around the fire drumming, singing and dancing together

 

In love, beauty and joy

Talulah x

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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17 Comments

  • Reply Jane Hardwicke Collings June 27, 2016 at 5:02 am

    ahhh, my heart is filled with your beauty Dear Talulah, thank you for being you! xxx

  • Reply Lisa June 27, 2016 at 5:35 am

    Loving hearing and seeing your process Talulah ! Xxx thanks for the inspiration ! I am often confused about my medicine and am asking for some clarity around it at the moment so this blog was great to read! love, Lisa xx

    • Reply Talulah Gough June 27, 2016 at 5:50 am

      Also Lisa, if you wanted to do some past life journeying.. Julia (sacred familiar) does Skype sessions, or if you are in Vic? She is amazing.. Love xxx

  • Reply Lisa Raven Wing June 27, 2016 at 5:37 am

    Loving hearing and seeing some of your inner process, Tahlulah! Thanks for sharing xxx 💗🙏🏼

    • Reply Lisa Raven Wing June 27, 2016 at 5:39 am

      Oops! I thought my first comment didn’t send! Twice as much love ! Hehe xx

      • Reply Talulah Gough June 27, 2016 at 5:49 am

        Haha! Thanks Lisa, love your comment, especially twice.. Thank you! xxx

  • Reply Becsta June 27, 2016 at 11:42 am

    Thank you, Talulah… Precious namings… Beauty as a tangible Way to follow… And a precious weekend! I find it recurs in my thoughts at odd moments… Perhaps my biggest take-away was that anything can be an oracle… The inner knowing so strong… And Mikailah’s gentle drumming… Xxx

    • Reply Talulah Gough June 27, 2016 at 9:30 pm

      Thank you Bec, it was a magical portal, that weekend… and yea! Anything can be an oracle.. thanks for the reminder .. love xxx

  • Reply Avalon Darnesh June 27, 2016 at 8:57 pm

    Beauty-full, Talulah. Thank you for sharing your journey from disappointment to acceptance to celebration of the gifts and qualities you bring to the world through shining your essence. I also sometimes have a difficult time defining my path and can relate more to qualities than titles. Your article reminds me to remember the qualities. My Blossoming Woman tagline is “Live Life Beautifully” 🙂 the simple things are sometimes the most powerful. Beauty is magic. Thank you! xxx

    • Reply Talulah Gough June 27, 2016 at 9:32 pm

      Magical Avalon, you live beauty every day.. thats big medicine, love xxx

  • Reply eva joan September 14, 2016 at 2:40 am

    wow Talulah… I just finished reading your blog on sisterhood and now this one and I am crying tears of pure recognition & love… I guess it’s because what you wrote is very beautiful and real and raw, and also because I see myself in what you’ve shared. Recently I went through a mini journey to find my purpose and essence – and like you, I didn’t come out with some grandiose label – rather it was beauty, light and laughter… So, thank you for reminding me that I too can make a difference in this world by embodying these qualities and letting them ripple out into the heart of others… <3 <3 <3

    • Reply Talulah Gough September 14, 2016 at 9:53 pm

      Eva, I can only see some of your comment.. but hoping you are crying tears of something good.. lots of love xxx

  • Reply eva joan September 15, 2016 at 6:02 am

    Hoping it gets to you this time 😉
    wow Talulah… I just finished reading your blog on sisterhood and now this one and I am crying tears of pure recognition & love… I guess it’s because what you wrote is very beautiful and real and raw, and also because I see myself in what you’ve shared. Recently I went through a mini journey to find my purpose and essence – and like you, I didn’t come out with some grandiose label – rather it was beauty, light and laughter… So, thank you for reminding me that I too can make a difference in this world by embodying these qualities and letting them ripple out into the heart of others… <3 <3 <3

    • Reply Talulah Gough September 19, 2016 at 1:09 am

      Ah once again it cuts off! I am assuming joy, and love xx Thank you Eva, love to you xxxx

    • Reply Talulah Gough September 23, 2016 at 10:59 pm

      I found the whole comment! Yay! Thank you Eva, that is SO your beautiful medicine.. and it is powerful.. love to you shining one, Love xxxx

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